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As always, so many books, so little time to read.I do know that I could spend more of my time reading, and less drinking tea and being on...

As always, so many books, so little time to read.

I do know that I could spend more of my time reading, and less drinking tea and being on fedi.

A bit of Lucy into your timelines.#Caturday #Cats #CatsOfMastodon

A bit of Lucy into your timelines.
#Caturday #Cats #CatsOfMastodon

Doris the Cat in profile.#Caturday #cat #kissa

Doris the Cat in profile.
#Caturday #cat #kissa

The light green of spring is just so beautiful. 🌱

The light green of spring is just so beautiful. 🌱

My life would have been, and would be, much better if I had never fallen in love with anyone. It has brought me very little joy.

My life would have been, and would be, much better if I had never fallen in love with anyone. It has brought me very little joy.

This is so far I have regained my love of reading books. It never went away completely, but it's back really strong.

This is so far I have regained my love of reading books. It never went away completely, but it's back really strong.

Not a resolution as such, but an aim for 2024; read more books.#books

Not a resolution as such, but an aim for 2024; read more books.
#books

MedicationI am taking medication which helps me. This is good.

Medication

I am taking medication which helps me. This is good.

DepressionI feel like I have nothing to say in conversations and discussions. In the last five or so years I feel like my analytical...

Depression

I feel like I have nothing to say in conversations and discussions. In the last five or so years I feel like my analytical thinking skills have massively deteriorated.

Even as a teenager I felt lost in conversations. I also considered myself to be boring and uninteresting. I still do.

I can't get my thoughts into spoken words, everything just ends up in a word salad, and let's more skilled people to take over the conversation.

DepressionMy depression has never been that "bad" that I wouldn't have been able to look after myself (aka eat and wash...

Depression

My depression has never been that "bad" that I wouldn't have been able to look after myself (aka eat and wash myself) and go to work. It's been low level for decades, and I don't know when it started.

I have had good times when I haven't necessary been particularly depressed, but for some things the kind of "meh" feeling had prevailed. I feel I have very few emotions, and I'm not good at recognising and dealing with them.

#depression

Summer in Finland is beautiful, but some rain would be great.

Summer in Finland is beautiful, but some rain would be great.

I don't want to be loved, because it seems to make people think they can demand things from me, or make fun of me. And insist that they...

I don't want to be loved, because it seems to make people think they can demand things from me, or make fun of me. And insist that they are not laughing at me when I tell them that I don't like being the butt of their joke and what they are doing doesn't feel very nice.

I didn't sleep very well last night.Depressing thoughts in my mind again.

I didn't sleep very well last night.

Depressing thoughts in my mind again.

Arm stuff, stillWell, more shoulder, but... Hurts. It also hurts around my left collar bone. I reckon it's all to do with the previous...

Arm stuff, still

Well, more shoulder, but... Hurts. It also hurts around my left collar bone. I reckon it's all to do with the previous injury.

And I can't sleep. Partly because of the physical pain,but also emotional pain. I'm not okay.

I wish I had a normal capability to be happy.The world is going down the toilet, but that's not the only thing bothering me. I think I...

I wish I had a normal capability to be happy.

The world is going down the toilet, but that's not the only thing bothering me. I think I have some long-standing chemical issue in my brain. Something whose root is in my childhood.

I'm back following several Finnish osprey nestcams, there might soon be even eggs there.

I'm back following several Finnish osprey nestcams, there might soon be even eggs there.

Arm is better, now trying to figure out my mind and my life in general.The problem being me being surrounded in the so called 'real...

Arm is better, now trying to figure out my mind and my life in general.

The problem being me being surrounded in the so called 'real life' by people who see nothing wrong with my life. They think that I should just stay put with the people I live with, as externally my life is "fine". Materially yes. Internally I am far from happy. Not been happy for years.

Not made easy when my parents seem to think it's just something I need to fix. And stay put where I am.

I know a bit vague.

Arm has definitely got better. Movement great, the physiotherapist was very, very happy with my progress, and basically telling me there was...

Arm has definitely got better. Movement great, the physiotherapist was very, very happy with my progress, and basically telling me there was not much more she could do to improve it. She only could advise me to keep on doing my exercises. So that's what I am doing.

This armMy fracture has healed well, and movement is good as well. So I have finally returned to work, through a phased return, so reduced...

This arm

My fracture has healed well, and movement is good as well. So I have finally returned to work, through a phased return, so reduced hours, lighter duties. I'll get there.

Arm is getting better, my headspace worse.

Arm is getting better, my headspace worse.