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I woke up today at 9am with an intense feeling of anxiety. It's now about 11am and I am still battling it. But I'm trying to let the...

I woke up today at 9am with an intense feeling of anxiety. It's now about 11am and I am still battling it. But I'm trying to let the anxiety be, rationalizing that it cannot hurt me. It's still a struggle every moment, but it's better than focusing my every minute on breathing exercises.
#anxiety

I've been relentlessly looking for resources to help myself out. Last night I found Dare by Barry McDonagh, which gave me a tool to...

I've been relentlessly looking for resources to help myself out. Last night I found Dare by Barry McDonagh, which gave me a tool to handle anxiety. He said to defuse the anxiety, allow it to happen, run towards it, and engage it (with your normal activities). It has helped me a little bit.
#anxiety

I broke down after I got home. The walk was supposed to chill me out, but when I got back I felt more trapped than ever. I cried and hugged...

I broke down after I got home. The walk was supposed to chill me out, but when I got back I felt more trapped than ever. I cried and hugged my wife and felt dismal and sad. I had scheduled a visit with a psychiatrist, but because of Veteran's day I needed to survive until Tuesday.
#anxiety

Last night while walking through the busy city, trying to center myself, I nearly reached my tipping point. It was loud and busy and...

Last night while walking through the busy city, trying to center myself, I nearly reached my tipping point. It was loud and busy and chaotic, even at the riverside park. I felt like I had to get out. I needed to book a one way ticket to anywhere that was more peaceful, so I'd suffer less.
#anxiety

I moved to NYC with my wife over a month ago. Relatedly, I've been struggling with waves of panic and anxiety. It's a horrible...

I moved to NYC with my wife over a month ago. Relatedly, I've been struggling with waves of panic and anxiety. It's a horrible feeling, with lots of dread and fear when I attempt to do anything that I usually enjoy. I also think of the worst possible thing that could happen.

#anxiety #panicattack

Been struggling dearly with anxiety over the last week and a half. I’ve been using the 4-7-8 breathing method to calm myself but it gets...

Been struggling dearly with anxiety over the last week and a half. I’ve been using the 4-7-8 breathing method to calm myself but it gets tiring to keep doing, and doesn’t give me much time to focus on anything else. #anxiety

Rest in peace, Bram Moolenaar. I’ve probably spent thousands of hours writing code in #vim. Thank you for building and maintaining such a...

Rest in peace, Bram Moolenaar. I’ve probably spent thousands of hours writing code in #vim. Thank you for building and maintaining such a great open source tool.

:wq

It’s somewhat amusing to work out the general time zone people are living in by the timing of or lack-thereof toots about #fireworks.

It’s somewhat amusing to work out the general time zone people are living in by the timing of or lack-thereof toots about #fireworks.

Time for an introduction! I love learning new things. My curiosity has gotten into me into many side projects but I rarely finish one. I’m...

Time for an introduction! I love learning new things. My curiosity has gotten into me into many side projects but I rarely finish one.

I’m currently learning #bevy, #rust, and #pixelart. I’ve been interested in #gamedev for most of my life and I would love to ship a game!

My other interests include #illustration, #scifi, #fantasy, #architecture, #pcgaming, #crpg, #hardware, #gamedesign, #graphicdesign, #anime, #ui, #ux, #accessibility, #webdev, #js, #colortheory, #3dmodeling, #leveldesign, #shaders, #procgen, and #worldbuilding.

Outside, I enjoy #walking, #nature, #trees, #mountains, #oceans, and #lakes.