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I honestly did not expect starting ADHD meds to result in me seriously considering almost completely...

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I honestly did not expect starting ADHD meds to result in me seriously considering almost completely giving up alcohol.

Almost seems a shame. Whatever. Gotta move on.

24.5.2025 17:29I honestly did not expect starting ADHD meds to result in me seriously considering almost completely...
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So, bit of a problem and it’s a nice problem to have, but still a problem.

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So, bit of a problem and it’s a nice problem to have, but still a problem.

The ADHD meds are working better than I’d dared hope.

I’m almost functionally neurotypical on them.

I have no neurotypical socialisation though. I’m a neurodiverse person cosplaying but not masking. Ok. Bit odd. Whatever.

Pretty much all of my friends are neurodiverse.

This appears to be fine amongst the ones who are ADHD and medicated.

The ones who aren’t though; I really need to stop making eye contact because I think I’m freaking them out.

Sorry everyone x

20.5.2025 21:11So, bit of a problem and it’s a nice problem to have, but still a problem.
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ADHD meds are dangerous! They cause hypertension! You must not take them! - some wankers.

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ADHD meds are dangerous! They cause hypertension! You must not take them! - some wankers.

The “hypertension”

a blood pressure monitor showing a pressure of 107 over 73

19.5.2025 08:33ADHD meds are dangerous! They cause hypertension! You must not take them! - some wankers.
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Breakfast of champions (if your champion happens to be a chaos goblin). Clockwise from left: blood p...

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Breakfast of champions (if your champion happens to be a chaos goblin). Clockwise from left: blood pressure monitor, cereal, water, protein yoghurt, lisdexamfetamine 50mg.

Top down image of my breakfast as described in post body

17.5.2025 07:53Breakfast of champions (if your champion happens to be a chaos goblin). Clockwise from left: blood p...
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This blows my mind. My sleep data from Apple Health over the last 6 months.

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This blows my mind. My sleep data from Apple Health over the last 6 months.

The green line marks the point I started amphetamines. It doesn’t make a lot of difference.

The red line: I read Sisters of Dorley

A chart showing week by week sleep time averages. It is divided into two by a red line. Before I was routinely sleeping from 3 in the morning until 3 in the afternoon. After I’m sleeping roughly 6 hours consistently at normal hours. There’s a green line before the last three weeks that makes basically no difference.

13.5.2025 05:43This blows my mind. My sleep data from Apple Health over the last 6 months.
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I’ve been struggling with my HRT levels for a while after finding out I was effectively menopausal...

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I’ve been struggling with my HRT levels for a while after finding out I was effectively menopausal earlier this year. I noticed this by my FSH being high. Since then I switched from pills to gel and it got me back into the non menopausal range, but only just.

I know this because I’ve been having regular blood tests. My metabolism is quite fast and clears stuff from my system quickly, so the longer release of gel (it builds a reservoir in the fat) works for me.

Anyway, since starting lisdexamfetamine for ADHD, I’ve checked my FSH using urine tests and it got a lot lower still. I figured it was somehow calming down my liver and letting the oestrogen last longer in the body.

Got a new blood test result yesterday. FSH is now MUCH lower, which is good.

But it’s not from oestrogen.

It’s from TESTOSTERONE!

Elvanse seems to have kicked my adrenal glands up a notch. I guess this makes sense. It is a stimulant. It’s taken my T from the very bottom of the female range to the middle of it. Impressive, given I have no ovaries (in cis women, testosterone comes from both the ovaries and adrenals).

Explains why my sex drive has been a bit higher of late, I guess.

A graph showing my testosterone sitting at the bottom of the female range all year until it suddenly jumps into the middle this month.

10.5.2025 06:10I’ve been struggling with my HRT levels for a while after finding out I was effectively menopausal...
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Noticed when driving on Elvanse that I have to actively scan for hazards which I just knew about bef...

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Noticed when driving on Elvanse that I have to actively scan for hazards which I just knew about before.

This is making me be super careful when driving.

For those who don’t have ADHD, it’s really badly named. We don’t have an attention deficit at all. We just can’t control what it’s focusing on for long.

Basically our brains are constantly processing the entire input stream from our environment. All of it. You have no idea how utterly overwhelming this is until it switches off for the first time.

And then there’s a moment of clarity, before which you were listening to every radio station in the world simultaneously and always have been.

And now you’re just listening to one.

But with driving, I think that was actually making me a safer driver because it’s hard to become target fixated when your neurology basically can’t do that.

Something for me to be aware of. Now I have to choose to scan for hazards.

Or drive unmedicated.

Apparently if you’re a pilot with ADHD, your medical requires you to fly unmedicated. I now understand why.

4.5.2025 07:21Noticed when driving on Elvanse that I have to actively scan for hazards which I just knew about bef...
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ADHD med titration continues apace. I’m sticking with 50mg Elvanse (lisdexamfetamine) and adding i...

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ADHD med titration continues apace. I’m sticking with 50mg Elvanse (lisdexamfetamine) and adding in 10mg Amfexa (dexamphetamine) as a booster to get me through the evening.

2.5.2025 15:07ADHD med titration continues apace. I’m sticking with 50mg Elvanse (lisdexamfetamine) and adding i...
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I honestly never dreamed my life would go in the direction of having to manage the duality of being ...

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I honestly never dreamed my life would go in the direction of having to manage the duality of being a functional adult who can do adult things in the daytime and is sensible and all that stuff, and a chaos goblin by the evening.

The transition I saw coming from a long time before, if I’m being honest. But while neurodivergence was always obvious to anyone who met me, finally getting the actual answer and following it through to Planet Amphetamine and all that implies has blindsided me a bit.

These drugs are very very weird to be on.

But they may have saved my life.

2.5.2025 12:49I honestly never dreamed my life would go in the direction of having to manage the duality of being ...
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The single weirdest thing for me about being on Elvanse for ADHD is getting to spend each day as a f...

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The single weirdest thing for me about being on Elvanse for ADHD is getting to spend each day as a functioning human being with regulated emotions and executive function, but knowing that the clock is ticking and that when the timer runs down I am going to return to being a self-hating hyperactive messy vial of emotional nitroglycerin.

1.5.2025 13:17The single weirdest thing for me about being on Elvanse for ADHD is getting to spend each day as a f...
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