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theory: canadians enjoy off-season vacations to mexico in the winter months, not so much because they get to be warm, but just so they can...

theory: canadians enjoy off-season vacations to mexico in the winter months, not so much because they get to be warm, but just so they can wear less fucking clothes for a few days

twenty-nine daaayyyyss!!!#MimsV

twenty-nine daaayyyyss!!!

#MimsV

Content warning:trans body talk, bitchingmy bra doesnt fit.i need to go down a band size and up a cup size and sure, good problems to have,...

Content warning:trans body talk, bitching

my bra doesnt fit.

i need to go down a band size and up a cup size and sure, good problems to have, except—

i get my bras at Giant Tiger because my size keeps changing and for a bra thats only useable for six months, I don't want to pay more than $9

except they dont DO band sizes below 34 with cup sizes above D. for my new size, in this town, i have to go to Victoria Secret, where bras are $80

a bra which might not fit after 90 days of surgical recovery

bleargh!

"exposed shoulders are not work appropriate."chat, i came to work in tank tops nearly every day all summer long.oh well i guess i...

"exposed shoulders are not work appropriate."

chat, i came to work in tank tops nearly every day all summer long.

oh well i guess i just have to wear my cute sweater instead.

#TheSelfiesMustFlow #AdventuresInRetail

today my work outfit is VIVID!(this is a Magic the Gathering joke)#TheSelfiesMustFlow #AdventuresInRetail

today my work outfit is VIVID!

(this is a Magic the Gathering joke)

#TheSelfiesMustFlow #AdventuresInRetail

sometimes being at peace with my body is disorienting.i used to have this ever-present and frenetic drive to act/build/create/clean and...

sometimes being at peace with my body is disorienting.

i used to have this ever-present and frenetic drive to act/build/create/clean and sometimes i wonder where its gone.

i think part of that drive was a sublimated impulse to fix things and since i "couldnt" fix my body and how i moved through the world, id fix other things instead.

i find myself resting more, and more importantly being *able* to rest, and thats 100% because my body isnt distressing.

i get less done but maybe thats good?

Content warning:vaginoplastyive had a good run with exterior genitals, its time to try them folded up inside.these are the kind of thoughts...

Content warning:vaginoplasty

ive had a good run with exterior genitals, its time to try them folded up inside.

these are the kind of thoughts i have, folks.

but its the next chapter of the adventure, well see how it shakes out (i mean hopefully nothing actually shakes out, thats a level of body horror i dont think im prepared for). there will be new things to learn, new ways to learn how to be, and im kind of into it?

im ready. which is a weird place to be getting to at 32 days out, but here we are.

#MimsV

Content warning:vaginoplastynow that doesnt mean, interestingly, that im certain that ill be happy with the results. thats still somewhere...

Content warning:vaginoplasty

now that doesnt mean, interestingly, that im certain that ill be happy with the results. thats still somewhere around "im 80% sure ill be happy with how it turns out."

(or how it turns IN, amirite, ladies?!)

but even if the results are not everything im hoping for, ive hit the point where i have to try. i have to see what its like—even if its less than perfect. even if its disastrous, which is kind of wild to think about.

...

#MimsV

Content warning:vaginoplastyhuh. so thats interesting.realized this morning that im ready for vaginoplasty.(emotionally, not logistically;...

Content warning:vaginoplasty

huh. so thats interesting.

realized this morning that im ready for vaginoplasty.

(emotionally, not logistically; theres still so much to prepare!)

ive been kind of stuck at "98% sure i want this" for a few months. its certainly not where i thought id end up at the start of transition, and theres been this tiny little voice saying "maybe this is a mistake."

but this morning im filled with certainty that i want to take this step.

…

#MimsV

at least for the space of these ten minutes, i am living my best life

at least for the space of these ten minutes, i am living my best life